Torment and Bliss

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 10:06:07 GMT

moved here

i'm a nomad. :P

p.s.
plong, tin and mc,
im ok now. kinda. i think. miss you all!

hello

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 06:06:10 GMT

I forgot about this blog. It's been more than a year since my last entry. Andami nang nangyari. I was too happy the past months. I figured it's just right that I didn't write anything about it. Cause it's not gonna last. Though I thought it would.

I've never been this sad my entire life. I've never been this lost. I've never been so thankful for the friends I have. I've never prayed this hard for myself. I've never needed so much strength.

Five years down the drain.

Si Lola Rose. bow.

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 10:53:27 GMT

Kuya and I had a chat about Lola today. I told him I visited her last Saturday and talked about him. She’s so worried about Kuya ‘s situation and even thought he might run out of money. I told this to Kuya and I think he got emotional there for a while. Hehe. He shared that every time he feels down, she talks to Lola and it always made him feel better. We then realized how good Lola is in giving words of encouragement and on not giving up.

We remembered how she would slightly hit us with her meter stick everytime we, her makulit grandchildren, imitate the boom shigi shigi waa shigi shigi oooowa thingie of Shaider where Kuya would pretend to be the ‘Alah’ and we’d be following him with our arms raised and waving as if praising ‘Alah’. Hahaha

I remember when I was on night shift, I would go straight to Lola’s house during Saturday mornings and she’d cook a sunny side up egg and have her helper buy me bread from Aling Puring. Lola makes the perfect sunny side up in the whole wide world! As in!

We also thought about the meriendas Lola bought us then: ogoy ogoy from Mitz’ na sinasawsaw sa juice or milo, binatog from manong binatog, bitso from batang mambibitso. And we’ll never forget her famous ulam, ginisang pechay and kamote cut in 1cm by 1cm pieces. It doesn’t actually tastes good but we eventually learned to eat it. Haha.

I won’t forget how she told me not to allow anyone to touch my hand. Hahaha. She’s not strict though. Just being a conservative Filipina. (Even though she got married at 18, wahahaha, oh well, uso naman yun dati.)

Sweetness doesn’t come naturally from her. She’s actually mataray most of the time. When she’s concerned with any of her relatives, she says it in a taray tone. I don’t know how she does it, but she still always makes us feel loved. Lola turned 78 this October. I hope that she will always be happy and worry free. Angabyu Ngonga Ngows!

Status Message - 102407

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 07:32:25 GMT

- dahil sa mababaw na kaligayahan... LEYT AKOW NGAYON! waaaa/sob
- we become what we think about
- beseh
- Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn't happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice.
- Heroes S2E5@\\172.16.24.55\Heroes
- Busy Na! =P
- Where is my dancing robbie!!!
- so little time.. so much to do.. huha! \o/
- Literal na tuyot na si LOLALISA
- I hate to see you go, but i love to see you leave :)
- hahaha! panalo playlist mo gerson! international hahaha! try nio -> MND00000113
- POORNESS!!! Naghihirap na ako... Waaaa!!! Tagal naman magsweldo!!! Huhuhu :((
- ,...4 working days to go,... that's what love is all about, meeting the right person & being with them no matter what,... =p
- make my wish come true, all i want for christmas is you... =)
- Say hello its me lets go! Im thinking of your thoughts and your thinking mine.
- tulips for me! hihihi..
- friendship, desire and lust
- really trying...
- lunch! finally! :D
- You're coming with me... We're going to hell... >D
- rainy mornin...
- kaya pala hanggang 4GB memory stick pro duo/duo... yun na lang kesa ipod para tipid... :-)
- KAZE @ Al's Bar tomorrow 9PM tara!
- Happy Birthday Mom!
- Sana Sana...
- Idle
- I'm on SMS

SINONG NAGSABING HINDI AKO BUSY?! SINONG NAGSABING WALA AKONG MAGAWA?! HA?! HA?! HA?!!!

Kung Kelan

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 10:13:45 GMT

- kung kelan gusto ko mahaba ang kuko, saka naman naputol yung isa
- kung kelan walang pera saka kelangan ng maraming pera
- kung kelan lumaki ang bahay saka naman umunti ang tao
- kung kelan may pambili na sila nanay ng masasarap na pagkain saka naman bawal na sila kumain ng mga yun
- kung kelan maganda ako saka naman tayo hindi nagkikita. haha
- kung kelan luluwas na ako saka naman uulan nang malakas
- kung kelan kelangan ko magseryoso sa buhay saka naman ako na-adik sa online game (hihihi)
- kung kelan ako nag leave saka naman wala sa bahay si Luis
- kung kelan may time ako mag paparlor saka naman wala akong pangpaparlor
- kung kelan may party saka naman ako hindi makakapunta
- kung kelan may time ako mag blog saka naman wala akong maisulat

may mali sa tagalog ko, hindi ko alam kung ano, ang lamig! brrrrrrrr!!!

Drama episode number 1

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 16:19:43 GMT

Our building's elevator was under repair this morning so I had to use the stairs. I was already one floor away from the lobby when a potangnang doggy came barking and running towards me and suddenly bit me and went barking and running away from me.

It wasn't a "bite" bite, just a scratch-like wound. It was rather a pa-cute bite that I actually don't find cute.

I told my brother about the incident. He was trying to convice me to go see a doctor but: (1) it was raining hard in Makati; (2) I don't know where to go; (3) my health card was in my wallet that was stolen by a potangnang magnenekew; and (4) i don't have the time. Kuya warned me that it's serious... blah blah blah so I got scared. He even called me to check if I was on my way to the hospital and I almost cried in the middle of our conversation, but I tried not to. After our conversation, I found myself crying in the ladies room. Baket?

I realized that in two weeks I will no longer have a Kuya near me. I am used to having a Kuya to the rescue, a Kuya who tells me I'm stupid when I'm tanga, a Kuya who believes I can do anything and that I'll go far, a Kuya who inspires me, a Kuya who spoils me, a Kuya who makes sandwiches, salads, barbeque sauce, pizza etc, blah blah blah.

He had his son call me early this evening to sing me rock-a-by-baby. I will surely miss that. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko pag malayo na si Kuya. Kawawang iyaking Ainah. Bow.

Twenty Names

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 01:56:01 GMT

Got this from Patricia's journal in multiply. Hihi. Ansaya.
List 20 names of people you know, then answer the questions below. List the names first before reading the questions =)

1 Bart (econsoc)
2 Carlo (brother)
3 Jackie (friend)
4 Golda (friend)
5 Kavie (friend)
6 Sel (friend)
7 Arleen (friend)
8 Alessi (brother)
9 Luis (2-yr-old nephew)
10 Amiel (cousin)
11 Kat (officemate)
12 Ige (uhm..)
13 Tintin (econsoc)
14 Jigs (econsoc)
15 Anton (officemate)
16 Plong (econsoc)
17 Cheche (roommate)
18 Emcee (econsoc)
19 Anne (sister-in-law)
20 Faye (officemate)

How did you meet 3?
Jackie is my best friend I met in high school.

What would you do if number 2 and 6 were going out?
(Carlo and Sel) My brother and my friend?! My brother and my friend? My brother and my friend… awwww… cute. But… I don’t know. Whatever makes them happy.

What do you know about number 8?
(Alessi) He’s determined to lose weight.

What do you think of number 7?
(Arleen) Sexy!

What would you do if 5 confessed he/she loves you?
(Kavie) I’ll switch the name in 5 with the name in 1. Haha.

A fact about 9?
Luis is happily dealing with his Attention Deficit Hyper Active Disorder because his lolo endures his hyperactivity and gives him constant attention.

Who's going out with 1?
(Bart) Si ano, si ano, si ano, si ano, si ano… Juuukas!

What's 4 do for a living?
Golda is a call center agent/supervisor.

Where does 7 live?
Arleen lives at ### Rhoda’s Subd., LB

What do you like about number 1?
Bart? Eyes eyes baby! Tendendendendedededen!

Do you miss number 2?
But of course! Carlo left for Japan last January. He’ll be back here for New Year though. But still… Nasan ka na? Kuyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

What is your opinion of number 6?
Sel is tunay na kaibigan.

What do you think about number 5?
Kavie is mabait at mapagkakatiwalaan.

What would you do if 3 and 8 were going out?
Jackie and Kuya Alessi? My best friend and my kuya? Bakit ba lagi friend ko at kapatid ko?!

Who does 2 like?
Ellis Carlo likes Manella Niña

Would you ever go to the movies with number 9?
With Luis? No way! That’s like torture! Hahaha

Is number 4 hot?
Is she?

What can u say about number 10?
Amiel is my iyaking cousin.

Does 20 know 16?
Faye and Plong? Nope.

What sport does 14 play?
Jiggy? Errr… Bowling? I guess.

What school is 17 from?
Che is from UST.

Will 18 and 12 work out as lovers?
Emcee is 23, Ige is 10. Hmmm… I don’t know. But I do believe age doesn’t matter.

Is 11 friendly?
Katrina? Katitay? Oh yes! Super!

Would you go out with 13?
Gimik with tin? Sure!

Are you close to 15?
Anton? I hope… :( hahaha

Ever dated 19?
Anne is my sister-in-law.

Is 16 a good friend of yours?
Plong? Yes!

What would you like to say to 12?
Hi Ige :) Mmmwah!

What would you like to say to 17?
Dear Cheche,
Thank you for being a nice roommate.
Love,
Ainah

Ever gotten into a fight with 18?
With Emcee? Nope!

Describe 20.
Foxy Faye is extremely talented. She’s a singer and a songwriter. Her tongue can reach her upper chest :)

What if 11 and 15 dated?
Kat and Anton? Nooooooo!!! Magagalit ako kay Kat!!! Haha!

Would 16 and 19 make a good couple?
(Plong and Anne) Hindeeeee.

Is 14 a good kisser?
Jigs? Tanungin natin si ano... hehehe

One Word that reminds you of 5:
Chikitamchikitutamtambadumbambambadadadabadumbambambede! :)

Walang Kwenta

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 04:43:23 GMT

Sinong nagsabing bored ako?! Sinong nagsabing since Monday pa ako walang ginagawa?! Sinong nagsabing wala pa rin akong magawa?! Sinong nagsabing crush ko si bart?! Hahaha. Tae.

Sobrang wala akong magawa. As in! Shet. Tae. Bakit kasi hindi nagbabackup? Baket? Bakeeeeet?

At baket every week eh naguulam ako ng luncheon meat? Kelan? Kelan ako magsasawa sa luncheon meat at ketchup? Kelan ako lulubayan ng luncheon meat??? Minsan na nga lang ako umuwi sa LB, luncheon meat parin ang ulam!!!

At baket nakakabili ng Havaianas ang mga taong may utang sa akin na 225 pesos? Sana binayaran muna nya ako bako sya bumili ng Havaianas diba??? Two months na yung utang nya! Two months!!! Hindi pa kasama dun ang mga 10 peso coins kinuha nya sa lalagyan ng cotton buds na ginawa kong lalagyan ng coins! Tae!!!

At baket ang tamis ng kape kapag paubos na?

At baket kung kelan ako maganda eh hindi mo ko nakikita? Pag panget ako saka mo ko nakikita. Baket? Baket? Tae!

At baket ka pinapatawad ng friends mo kahit hindi ka nagsosorry? Bakit ang swerte mo? Bakit hindi mo narerealize na ang swerte swerte mo sa mga kaibigan mo? Bakit hindi mo naisip na wag gaguhin ang kaibigan mo? Bakeeeet? (hindi ko kausap sarili ko)

baket ang liit ng boobs mo? bakeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet? (kausap ko sarili ko)

Baket ko pinost yung picture sa taas? Baket? Hahaha. hindi ko alam. Tae.

Baket walang kwenta yung sinusulat ko?

babay!

The reason i was late this morning...

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 06:33:13 GMT

I had a dream. Is it possible that you don't want to wake up because you're having a good dream? :) I swear that was how I felt this morning. I really tried not to wake up so I got here at the office, 10 minutes before 11am :)

Here's my dream:

It was around 8pm, I guess, somewhere I don't know. I went to a dance audition (yes, dance!) after work. I did not tell anyone about me joining the audition cos I know they'll laugh at me. Hahaha. I got there alone, and then when I was waiting for my turn, I realized The Dawn was just beside me and then Francis Reyes saw me and said, "uy Ainah, musta? sasayaw ka? diba nagwowork ka? kamusta na kayo ni bart?

(then I forgot what happened)

basta there's this nice guy pa... i can't remember what his role in my dream was. Wehehe.

I think I don't want my dream to end cos I wanna see myself dance. Bwahahaha.

And why? why? why was The Dawn in my dream? :) Hahaha!

Waiiit.... Billy Crawford was there too! He gave me a hug before my audition. Ahihi. Crush ko si Billy Crawford... kamusta naman yun? Hahaha!

I've been tagged by Timmy Cruz!!!

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 05:57:22 GMT

Though I'm busy today, I made sure to find time to do this because it's an honor to be tagged by Timmy Cruz. Here's the list of 15 weird things about me..

1. I like sleeping beside nanay with my hand in her armpit.

2. I get hurt when people call me ‘tanga’ even if it’s just a joke.

3. I almost got kidnapped when I was 6 years old.

4. I was a member of Milo Club and Flying House club :)

5. I’m too lazy to fit the clothes before buying them.

6. Most of my crushes are singkit. (Eto talaga weird! Hahaha)

7. I believe that people who have bilog bilog sweats in their nose are jealous. I started having these bilog bilog sweats when I turned 20 and became a jealous person since then. hahaha

8. I sometimes feel out of place when I’m with my girlfriends :(

9. I believe I’m gonna die single.

10. I don’t like washing dishes in other people’s sink because I don’t want to use other people’s sponge. Nandidiri ako humawak ng sponge ng ibang tao.

11. I was already 22 when I got inside a hula hoop and hula hooped for the first time.

12. I want to get sick and be confined in a hospital for a week.

13. My room in our house in LB became a large closet when I moved to Makati. I sleep in the master’s bedroom with nanay and tatay and luis when I go home.

14. I have never cooked corned beef all my life; I was very proud when I learned how to cook sunny side up egg; I once made a macaroni salad… macaroni salad as in macaroni, mayonnaise and chicken lang, hahahaha!

15. I have mastered the art of starving. I’d rather starve than cook something for myself. I’d choose not to eat with my family when I know it’s my turn to wash the dishes so that I won’t be the one to wash them because I did not eat. I don’t eat when I feel lazy to buy food.

I'll tag Jiggy, Plong, Kavie, Jana and Golda. (Not that I don't know you guys, but you're my only friends who have online journal. Hahaha)

C-C-Coo-Cooling Crystals

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 08:39:27 GMT

You know the Colgate toothpaste with the cooling crystals thingie? I don't know if it's just me or there's something there that i don't know. I find myself separating a number of cooling crystals from the gel and have them melt in my tongue one by one. Seriously, what's wrong with me?

Annoying people

Tue, 29 May 2007 05:12:02 GMT

1.
People gets so plastic and sweet when borrowing money. You know when they become plain? When they already have your money. They act as if wishing you will forget they owe you. Won't even make any effort to assure you they are planning to pay you back. To think they give all their effort and reasons and lies and chuchus just to make us pity them. But it's not sympathy they need. They need cash. We should learn to lend our money only to those who know the concept of borrowing money. And those na hindi na kelangan tanungin kung kelan nila balak magbayad.

P.S. I am not madamot.

2.
People gets annoying when they are annoyed of something. They rant about this and that not knowing their ranting is just as annoying as what's infuriating them. Them = tweetums people.

P.S. Maarte ako pero hindi kasing arte nila.

3.
People gets mad when you did something wrong. They even get madder at you when they did something wrong. Even madder when you tell them they are wrong. Even madder madder when you argue that they are wrong. Even madder madder madder when they realize they are really wrong. I can't describe how mad they are. They are mad. Really mad.

P.S. He's a relative. hehehe. Is it in the genes? :)

4.
People gets moody when they think they are moody. They find reason why their moodiness should be excused and accepted. Even annoying when they act as if you're the reason of their mood swings. I don't know if they just want us to please them or treat them like a higher being and always have our heads down when talking to them. I am not to adjust to annoying moody people. Nek nek nila. Pare pareho lang tayong hindi nakukuha ang gusto natin.

P.S. moody ba ako?

5.
People gets very good in telling you something not straight to the point when they don't want to look bad in the end. They know how to deprive you of your chance to make angal about this and that. They can even tell you what kind of person you are without exactly telling what you really are.

P.S. annoying sila pero i love them!

6.
People gets sweet when they are guilty of something. Something = anything

P.S. annoying sila and i'm one of them. :)

Ang Cute ng Nanay ko

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 08:40:01 GMT

Pambawi lang. Hindi daw kasi ako nagpaalam nung lumuwas ako nung Sunday. Tinext ako ni nanay... Grabe ka. Tapos sabi ni kuya sobrang tampo daw si nanay at ilang beses sinabi na burangenget daw ako :(

Ahehehe. Sorry na nanay. Alabyu! Mwah!

oha. ayus sa music. hihihi

Name Names

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 08:24:09 GMT

Petiks mode. Nagbbrowse ako Peyups then nakita ko thread na something like grandparents' name. Wala lang :) Haha.
Parents ni nanay: Juan and Rosario
Parents ni tatay: Ambrosio and Julia
Ang ganda noh? Pero parang mas bagay yung Juan and Julia tapos Ambrosio and Rosario. Hahaha. Ayus. Wala lang ulit. Tapos ang pangalan ng mga kapatid ni tatay ay:
Pinay(Rufina)
Ida(Zenaida)
Ipay(Josefina?)
Hineng(Herminia?)
Ises(Moses)
Domeng(Dominador)
Nardeng(Leonardo)
Yung pangalan ng mga kapatid ni nanay eh medyo modern na. Hindi ko na isasama. Hehehehe.
Haha. So ano ngayon? Alam ko wala kayo pake. Gusto ko lang ilagay sa blog ko for future reference. Hahaha
Petiks nga eh! Ano ba!

Hello Teacher Inggay! :)

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 07:31:57 GMT

I was riding a jeep to campus when a fairly old woman smilingly blurted 'Graduate ka na?' to me. I was like... 'Uh-huh... O-po' while flashing a *sarcastic friendly smile* and trying to figure out who she was. After seconds of "I know her! I know her! I know her! Who is she! Who is she! Who is she!"... Ayun! It's teacher inggay in the jeep! Ang galing! And she was the one to recognize me first. Hahaha.

I was already wearing an oo-naaalala-na-kita-teacher-kita-dati look so she continued the conversation she started saying, 'Nakakatuwa naman graduate ka na achuchuchu' So I bragged about my being a working girl already. Awwww. Ang saya. Natutuwa daw siya :) Or maybe when I was in nursery she thought: "Ah etong batang to walang patutunguhan to. Maaga to mabubuntis tapos hindi makakatapos ng school" that's why she's happy for me now. Hahaha.

She also asked me who else were my batchmates... errr uhmm ok... I was only able to name *bleep*bleep* (i.e., my crushie crush crush dati) and forgot the rest. Bwahaha. Siya lang talaga naalala ko! Haha!

Anyway, I don't think she still remembers my name. I can't recall her name either. Hehe. I just call her Teacher Inggay because that's what tatay calls her when we see her around the campus. Hehe. I can't think of anything that would make her recognize me after almost 20 years. I was just an average little nursery girl with awfully curly hair, bulok teeth and dark skin. Ampanget! Haha! Ayun. Hello, teacher inggay. It was nice to see you again. :)

KELANGAN ALL CAPS?!

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 08:13:02 GMT

NGAYON LANG ULIT AKO MAG POST SA LJ KO DAHIL PUTANGINA SOBRANG INIS AKO.
BAKIT KELANGAN ALL CAPS ANG REPLY SA KIN? NAPAKA UNPROFESSIONAL
ANG MATINDI, SIYA NA YUNG MALI, HINDI PA NAGSORRY!
PUTANGINA! YUN LANG!
LECHE!

Hello LJ!

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 02:06:51 GMT

I'm busy.

Happy Valentine's day/TIIS day/SAD day.

Tae. Hehe.

Later!

Bye bye 2006!

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 09:35:59 GMT

I had a tiring year end. But it was fun! Nanay's brother and his family spent New Year in Laguna and they stayed in our house. My youngest cousin, Hannah, entertained me. I'm not used to be called Ate Ainah, but Hannah made it sound that i'm such a good Ate :) I don't know how old she is but she's already in grade 1. She always shouts, Ate, dito ka! and then she tells me stories about anything. Ang daldal, in a nice and lovely way. Hehe. It was the first time I really felt I am a sister to a little kid. Ok, so I was already 22 when I enjoyed the thought of being an Ate. Hehe. I hate kids. Everybody knows that. Hehe. Let me rephrase that so people won't think i'll grow up to be a mean old maid. Hihi. I should just say I'm not fond of kids that much. There. Hehe.

We have foreign visitors to celebrate New Year with us. My tita's boyfriend from US of A and two Korean boys who are staying with my Tito for two months. I wanted to have a picture with them saying United Colors of Benetton. Oo na, ako yung negra! Tse! But then I had a hard time to talk with the Korean boys. They're not that good in English yet so we always do hand gestures when conversing with them. And... they are always hungry!!! Hungry!!! Nakakatuwa. I thought Koreans smell bad, but these kids don't. Hehe. They go straight to bathroom and take a bath the moment they wake up. Ayus din. Damusak nga lang lagi sa banyo namin :)

New year's eve was disappointing for me. I only saw few fireworks in our place. :( Lola's house was in between neighbors who were fond of Judas' belt. So hello nonstop Judas belts!!! Our clan didn't even had torotot!!! Poor us. Hehehe. Thanks to magic sing I created too much noise enough to annoy my relatives. Bwaha-ha-ha.

2006 recap:
January - I was on a nightshift project, earning much much money (and it's all gone now)
February - The dreaded Feb Fair 2006 end up being a dreadful one for me. Haha
March - Luis' first birthday!
April - Weekend getaways with plong, jigs and ruben
May - Galera
June - Bought my phone
July - I got a place in Makati!
August - I think I was supposed to receive a bouquet of flowers, I don't know what happened :p juuukas!
September - Happy! Happy ano? Hahaha!
October - Happy birthday Bart!
November - I was broke. Hehe.
December - Surfing 101!

Anyway, I feel pretty. Oh so pretty these past few days. (But not today, hehe) I'm wearing polka dots though. Money money money!!!

Hello 2007!

me and kukui

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 09:34:05 GMT

okay im bored. si boss, made me report to office yesterday and today to do something i could still do next week. im not procrastinating though i'm a great follower of procrastination. my work load is light, i can squeeze my two-week workload in a week. he's too madamot he made me spend the 27th and 28th of december in the office. :( while he was away this whole week! hmmmp! yan tuloy, i wore jeans to office. the receptionist was really looking at me when i got here yesterday. nangengelam, hindi naman siya hr para tingnan ako ng ganun. tse! pakirawraw.

i had a very normal christmas. nothing special as usual. single as usuaaaal asukaaaal. hehehe. did not send christmas greetings to anyone due to a reason that only bart knows. ngahahaha. tae. i went christmas shopping alone last thursday and guess what, after an hour of hailing a cab to take me to my flat i decided to take the bus to lb instead. hehehe. (at walang coherence ang mga sinusulat ko).

sel and me and kukui. pier one. first time to went out at manila with them. (gen was with us too)

plong and me and kukui. plong, my stresstab, my stress reliever and my stress provider. haha jukas plong :)

mon and me and kukui. mon's my blocmate. never thought he would be one of my kagimikans here. no other comments. hehe

ruben jigs me and kukui. kamusta ang kamay ni ruben at ang posing ni jigs? :)

original cast ng walang sawa sa pier one

bart and me and kukui. at jacket na malaki.

sel and me and kukui. sa isis cafe. at last, naka gimik ulit dun :)

bart and me and kukui.

primo and me and kukui. ganda lalake si primo :)

ayun lang. tapos na.
more pictures here

tumaba ba ako?

I went surfing! :)

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 02:25:02 GMT

December beach! Yey! Bought an orange polka dots bikini from Seventeen. Yeeeey. Define owrange!

Yes naman. A variation of typical Friendster picture. (the usual indian-sit-in-the-sand-beach-with-your-back-on-the-picture-pose) Hahaha. Get the picture? Hehe. I did not post this picture at Friendster though :p Haha!

Here are some photos that captured my surfing skills

Hahaha! Ayus.

Awww, look at the waaaaave. Makakatayo ba ako o hinde? Bwehehehe!

woooo. exhibition. hahaha. that's kuya bobot the instructor in black.

O-ha! That's 3 seconds for me! Hahaha. How pathetic. Hihi.

I got tired easily. The 3 seconds was enough for me. Haha. Hell, my knees were terribly scratched. *exaggeration in 'terribly'* But my knees really hurt, it was kinda bleeding and it's really not nice to have your bleeding knees soaked in salt water. Ok? *exaggeration in 'bleeding knees* basta may dugo! hehe

Anyway, i had fun there. We were the only visitors when we got to the resort. We really went there on a Friday so there would only be few people to witness our very first surfing lesson. But then the waaaaves were so huuuuuuge! Instructors said it the waves were not for beginners. Hehe! Waves were so scary! As in! Define malaki! Sawa kami to take pictures of them. Since we can't have our lesson that day, we amused ourselves... camwhoring!

Ahihihi. Iyna and the trees.

The trees and iyna. parang tanga. haha

inihaw na iyna daw. a a e. hail to the guardians of the watchtowers of the north... i envoke thee! *kidlat*kidlat*kulog*kulog*sabay ulan*

siga ng crystal beach resort.

poso negra! oo na! tae!!! tse!!!

more pictures here and here

but since mapilit kayo, sige, eto na ang picture namin dalawa. bwahahaha!

hwayus!

My head aches so bad I can't think of a title.

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 00:12:19 GMT

I'm still in my last night's outfit. Haven't slept at all. I still have the Econsoc seal stamped on my right wrist. I smell bad... cigarettes and all that stuff. Eeeeew. I'm in an Internet cafe...lost.

I can't believe what 's happening to me.

I got out of the house at past 4 in the morning. It was dark still. I took the tryk to get to the bus station for I was planning to go back to my flat at Makati. But then it hit me that it was just a waste of money and effort since I don't have any agenda at Makati. I have the rest of the week off from work. It's useless to go to Makati.

So there, I spent an hour and a half sitting at the steps in the bus station. I was crying. I couldn't help it. I don't care what other people there thought of me that time. I was a pathetic sober girl. But they didn't mind me at all.

I wanted to go to Kuya's house. I waited for 6am so someone's already up to open the door for me. And I don't want Lola to hear me knocking at the door. Kuya's house is located at Lola's compound and Lola's already up at 3 in the morning. I wanted to see Kuya. I wanted to cry at him. I wanted to cry. I wanted all my tears to flow and not have the effort to wipe any of it. I know Kuya will ask why but I don't want to tell him anything. I know if I ask him to let me cry, he just will. He would understand me just like that. I badly needed a good pathetic all out cry.

I got tired of waiting. Six buses already passed and I'm still sitting at the steps, wiping my tears. Then I heard bells from the church nearby. I thought of attending the mass at St. Therese Chapel. I got up, crossed the road and hailed jeepney to the campus. When I got to the chapel, there were only less than 20 people there, all of them are white haired and had bible with them. I wondered what were they doing. There was no priest in the altar. So I just knelt and prayed, unmindful of the senior citizens around me.

That was the first time I truly prayed hard for one thing. I didn't even start my prayer with praises and thank yous to God nor did I ask for forgiveness. I went straight to what I wanted to ask from Him for I am lost. My life's not lost, my career's not lost... it's my thought about something that is lost. I'm tired. I want God to show me the way to where my feeling is supposed to be. I'm tired. I felt stuck with this feeling forever. I'm not giving up... I just need strength or I need God to tell me if I should push through with this feeling I'm carrying... and if not, I need Him to make me draw back so very far away from it. I'm tired. I wanna be loved. I so wanted to be loved right now.

..by you :(

unngh sleepy

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 02:14:15 GMT

Aaargh. I'm so uckin sleepy. Had a hard time sleeping last night. I think I fell asleep around 2am and I'm pretty sure I had three dreams but I can only remember one of those three. Hehehe. But that's not blogworthy, so forget it. Hihihi.

Awwgh. I've been in petiks mode since Monday. I sent my boss an email if I could be on leave for the rest of the week since I'm not doing anything... anything work-related. I've ran out websites to browse. I should be home sleeping or smoking at tambayan or playing with Luis or home sleeping (again) or be with my girfliends at lb... girfliends, girlfriends; poteyto, potato. Haay, boss hasn't replied yet.

I'm bored. :(

Yey!

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:29:32 GMT

Well I guess Reming heard me last Thursday. Ahehe.

So there, Instead of going home Thursday afternoon I prayed hard that Reming will find its way away from me. Hehe. I went to Sugarfree's Album Launch at Elbow Room.

Ayos din. It was my first time be out with a group of people I don't know. I was with Bart and his high school friends. Hahaha. Natatawa ako. Bart and I were the first to arrive there and when the girls got there one by one, pair by pair, whatever, basta yun, Bart went somewhere I don't know and left me there for a while. Of course the girls had a chit chat with each other muna cos they just got there. Then I found myself browsing pictures in my phone and texting jiggy and jackie to text me cos I felt a little out of place for a while there. Hahaha! Parang tanga. Wala lang, just wanted to share my first not-part-of-the-group-girl-in-the-group experience. Hahaha. But the girls were nice, really. :) And I had fun that night.

Mitch was there. Bart and I approached him. I tapped his shoulders and said Mitch, picture! Haha! Feeling close :) I think Mitch is such a nice person or maybe he just looks like a good boy or maybe he just looks like my Kuya or maybe because he was wearing glasses that night. Haha. I heard him say to Bart Uy ha, pag nagkasalubong tayo, magkakilala pa rin tayo ha (not the exact words, hehe). Hahaha, nakakatuwa naman. Also had pictures with former and present drummers who amazingly look like my siblings... kinda.. a little... basta!

Kuya Alessi-look-alike and Iyna

Ainah and Ellis-look-alike

After the album launch, the group headed to Good Earth and had another bucket or two while waiting for Ebe and his girlfriend, Pao, there. Ebe and Pao stayed with us for less than half an hour. Iba na talaga pag celebrity, you have many groups of people to attend to. Hehe.

It was raining when we left Metrowalk around 2am. Thanks to Bart's friend's boyfriend who gave us a ride to Buendia. Thanks thanks. Bart and I decided to take the first bus trip to LB so in case Reming comes, we're safe home. Since it was still early, we went to Inay's to eat. There were two girls there who entertained us while we were killing time. Hahaha. Ang kulit nila. I don't remember what we talked about but I'm sure they said something funny about Bart! Hahaha!

We got to the bus terminal a little early, i think it was 3:45 and for all we know, the first trip is at 4am. We fell asleep as soon as we were seated in the bus. I woke up, I was wondering where were we, I thought we were somewhere in Calamba already, I checked the time, it was 4:51am. Anakngbalotatpenoy! We were still at the terminal! The bus hasn't left yet! Walanya! Oh well, I just went back to sleep. Bart woke up when we the bus was entering the expressway. And he thought too we were in Calamba. Bwahahaha. Went back to sleep. It was 6:30 when we arrived in LB. Good thing it wasn't raining. It was windy though.

I had a 15-hour sleep that Friday night... Friday afternoon actually, cos I fell asleep at 4pm. Hehehe. Wasn't able to have dinner na though I can hear my parents inviting me for dinner. I know I was hungry but I was too lazy to even tell my parents I won't join them at dinner. Hihi.

I woke up early the following day, 7am. I forgot what I ate that morning. Kuya invited us for lunch at Lola's house. Yey, lamon and Coke. Weeeeee! Ampogi ni Luis. He's getting bigger and bigger and more sutil nga lang.

I watched HBO before going to sleep that Saturday night. I don't know the title of the movie, but one of the characters is Stiffler's brother. Very light story, did not see any climax there. Hehe, but I finished it still. (Remote control's not working, I was already lying and I don't want to stand up to change the channel, yep, Katamaran in short). I watched the next movie, Before Sunset starring Ethan Hawke and a French girl. The whole movie, these two were talking to each other. As in the whole time! I did not understand the story cos I was really sleepy, I just finished it because I wanted to see whether these two are going to talk to each other in the entire movie. And they did. At wala akong napala sa ginawa ko :) Hehehe. Yan tulog, I woke up late and did not catch Project Runway at etc. I just caught the part where they announced that Chloe won. Hmmp. I did not get to see their collection, too bad. Anyway, there's a replay naman at night but I already went here in Makati in the afternoon since Nanay and Tatay were not home that Sunday.

And I woke up happy this morning :)

hola! :)

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 03:01:07 GMT

la lang :)

Please hear me, reming...

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 04:05:43 GMT

I hope Reming comes two days late, as in weekend. I was supposed to attend my org's party tonight but then it was postponed due to Reming's visit at Laguna. Shiyet. Friday holiday is gonna be useless for me cos I guess I'll just be confined home because of Reming's shower. Ah! So annoying!

I hate rainy days! I hate typhoons! I hate super typhoons! A rainy day can ruin my plan, how much more can a super typhoon ruin my days.

It starts off by giving me a problem on what clothes to wear. I don't have a rainy day outfit! What is a rainy day outfit anyway? I have no idea! Lech. I am wearing slacks today cos I don't have any office outfit to wear cos I just brought clothes for this week and this pants is my last piece of outfit I have for this week so good luck to my slacks if I'll meet Reming today. I can almost imagine the hassle of going home to Laguna today when the rain starts to pour. Have to get in line and wait for the third bus to arrive because I'll be on the farthest end of the line. Grrrrr. And oh, the aggravating effort to get a ride to the bus terminal. Plus the exaggerated traffic! Aaaaargh!

As I got here at the office I asked my lead if I can take half day off today so I can go home to Laguna after lunch. Aba, he said Uwi ka na lang pag umulan na, kasi tomorrow morning pa naman daw yung bagyo. Wtf?! Eh what if Reming comes early today? So I have to wait for rain before I leave the office? Eh yun nga yung iniiwasan ko eh! Ang labo meeeen. I have to do a little paawa effect pa eh. Lech.

Ayoko ng bagyo. Pleaaaase. Go away, Reming. Please?